Author: Author Jewel Ruby

Sophisticated, intelligent, savvy, engaging and entertaining, and an all-around sweetheart, author Jewel Ruby is one of the most talented writers today. Born and raised in the Pullman neighborhood on Chicago's south side. Jewel Ruby's passion for writing began at the age of nine when she wrote her first poem entitled, "The Snow" which of course was about the snow. At the age of twelve, she wrote her first short story titled "Till Death Do Us Part" It was about a police detective by the name of Simpson; who was assigned to a chilling murder case. From that moment on, the passion to write has been coursing through her veins; she aspired to be a best-selling author. All works copyrighted by Jewel Ruby™ �

Sista

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Trying to find LOVE among words that were meant to break you

Sista, love doesn’t exist there

It doesn’t exist behind a fist raised with the intent to hurt you

When his ACTIONS speak something differently… LISTEN

For LOVE cannot be created in fabricated words of “I’m sorry”

and “I didn’t mean it…”

His excuses should be useless to your ears

You should be tired of his repetition…

Fewer UPs than DOWNs…

Less INs than OUTs

It’s time to tell him

“Save it… LOVE doesn’t exist here… only pain and angst resides… I’m tired and I’m worth more than this… I’m leaving”

He hopes to bury the damage he has caused underneath gifts and untruths…

It’s just a false ending to a never-ending cycle

He surely cannot love you

When he is fueled by anger from his own brokenness

That he chooses not to face

He just pushed in down deeper within himself

In hopes that it will eventually dissipate

He does not know what love is

So how can he show it?

You cannot heal a man who the spirit that is so filled with pain

So much so that happiness cannot penetrate its surface

Never allow him to make you feel as though HIS ACTIONS are your fault

When the fault truly lies in his lap

Yet he is too weak to carry it

That in which you seek doesn’t exist in a man who does not possess respect for you

Trying to find LOVE in a man whose intent is to bruise and break you

Sista, love doesn’t exist there

For LOVE is created from WORDS and ACTIONS that are meant to uplift and support you

Try to find LOVE among words that were meant to appreciate and honor you

Sista, love DOES exist there

It can exist behind arms raised in the intent to embrace you

When his ACTIONS speak the same as his words… LISTEN

Those words should be music to your ears

Soothing to your soul and puts your mind and heart at ease

That in which you seek to exist in a man who possess honesty and respect for you in his heart

Relinquish your hold on your pain

Break free from the mentality that HE is the best you could do

For there is a man out there better for you

Ready to treat you like the QUEEN you are

LOVE yourself enough to say

NO MORE

This ends today

Dig deep within and find the strength you loss

My sista, you were born for greatness

Reclaim it

Partner In Time

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In life, we measure almost everything by TIME.

What time something starts or ends.

We measure the length of time it takes to get from point A to point B.

We calculate how many hours we have slept…and so on…

When referring my mate, as my “Partner in Time” I am referring to a lifeTIME.

Every hour down to the nanoseconds of TIME…

I have chosen this person to be my partner. – Jewel Ruby

 

Battered and Scarred

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                                                             I am in love

I am in love with a hand that strikes me

Like a jackhammer on the concrete

Pounding repeatedly

My face is his stress reliever

Fueled by alcohol and anger

Each blow delivered makes my soul quiver

Left bruised and shaken

What more can I take?

Instead of standing strong

I cowered in fear

Anticipating another wave of pain

But it does not come

Through swollen eyes I witness this hand grow tired

Well you see

I am tired

Tired of being in tight spaces

Where my heart races

Taking my mind through too many paces

I am in love with words that condemned me

Until I no longer feel worthy

In his love, I have lost ME

The one real piece of life

Because of my love for him

I now hold what is left of me

Battered, bloody, and scarred

Homeless

 

 

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I think I’ve shed more tears over love
Than I have shared smiles
Heartache
She’s a bitch
But I’m used to her now
Shit, she’s been here for me a few times

We’re almost like friends somehow
Seeking love has only brought me nothing but pain
Yet I still seek it
Because of what I see it gives to others
I want it
I don’t know what I’m doing wrong
I need an instruction manual to show me what to do
My heart bleeds
But I pretend everything is good
I walk around with a painted smile on my face
But deep inside

I wear the scars that
Love had provided
I once used it as my fuel to keep on moving
But my legs are tired
I don’t know if I can continue on doing this…
My headaches
From the thoughts that flood it
That man
Who’s voice sung to me so gently
When he spoke
My soul swayed to his tune
That man
Who’s smile warmed me from the inside
Until I exuded pure energy
Bright as the sun on a summer afternoon
I smile
Of memories
That man
No matter how lost he may have felt
He knew I am his home
For he was mine…
I sit here with tear stained cheeks
And a quiver in my voice
Today, I am homeless
But I wish to return home again
For now
I have no more words left in me
Leaving only my tears to speak…

Beautiful Surface Ugliness Beneath

 

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       Don’t be fooled by another beautiful surface. Pay attention to what lies just beneath.

Behind captivating eyes and smiles can be such ugliness. Your choice in a mate affects

your life. By nature, we are capable, many times unconsciously, of taking on the mindset

and lifestyle of the person we’re with. This is why it is absolutely vital for a person to

make the wisest choice in their mate. Don’t be with a person who isn’t on your level or

going places in life you don’t want to go. Take the time to truly get to know a person.

Even if they were deceptive in the beginning, it’s never too late to…

EXIT

 

 

 

 

Drake- Nice For What (Review)

 

In my opinion, this has to be one of Drake’s best songs. The lyrics are exceptional. The beat is outstanding. The overall vision is impressive. He is bringing back that old school Lauryn Hill vibe. Some say she should have been in the video as well, but I can’t say I agree or disagree with their opinions. What I can say is, this video exudes WOMEN POWER and BLACK GIRL MAGIC throughout this entire video and I am here for it!! The level of estrogen present in this video is phenomenal and I LOVE ALL OF IT!!  We need more music videos like this one in 2018!  This song just puts you in a good mood and you can’t help but dance to it.

 

Jewel Ruby

My King

 

Photo credit to Teyana Taylor and Iman Shumpert

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Who knew, when we first met, such a short time ago

How we would flow together so easily

You were like water invading spaces in my soul left vacant

By those who could not afford the rent

It was you who awakened thoughts that for so long have slept

Rekindling former smiles in faded eyes that for so long have wept

Then you asked me with your eyes to say YES…

Yet in silence,

I say all that needs to be said

Quivering limbs feeling your strong fingertips

Caressing my scars and fears

Surrendering to the essence of your masculinity

My skin grew flush until I seem to glow

Your lips ever so faintly pressed on my bitter-tainted and trembling ones

The language in my throat fades under your spell

I am left wordless

Yet my mind races

Swimming in the depth of this unexplainable feeling

Your lips are sweeter than anything I have ever tasted

There is no greater satisfaction

Than to look at you and experience breathlessness

Finding comforter in your complexity

Admiring the man you are…

Today we celebrate us

One more year,

One new chapter

Happy Anniversary, My king

 

 

Introduction

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It’s easy to scratch the surface to avoid seeing what’s not so pretty underneath… but I don’t fall in love with facades.

I seek to discover every facet of your character and be enthralled by your thoughts,  goals, ideas, and dreams…

“I want to get to know you,” isn’t my request to be shown the person you appear to be to the world, but to be shown the person you are deep within …

The person no one has ever seen. That’s the YOU to whom I wish to meet. Will you introduce HIM to me?

Allow our inner selves to get acquainted with one another. Let’s explore our idiosyncrasies. Get lost in the labyrinth that is our minds while we immerse ourselves in the bliss of our similarities.

Anchored by our differences only so that we do not lose ourselves in one another.

Hello, how are you?

Nice to meet you…

I am your future

The Waking Dead

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It was midnight and Toni Kingly couldn’t get to sleep. Not after a chorus of screams outside her room. Who needs silence to sleep when you had parents to keep you wake with their countless fights? Toni surely didn’t, she slowly sat up in bed, rubs her eyes, then swung her legs over the full-sized bed. Toni couldn’t fathom what her parents would have to fight about so late— or so early, depending on how you looked at it. Since this was an everyday occurrence in her household she didn’t bother to rush to see the problem. Instead, she heads to the kitchen to grab a snack. Cereal sounds good, she thought.

By the time she heads back to her room with her cereal in hand, her parents were silenced by what sounded like a movie on television. She didn’t bother to knock on their door, she walked past it and went back to her own room. Toni didn’t know why cereal tasted so much better at night. It just did. Shoveling the cereal into her mouth, Toni relaxed back on her bed. Finally, the house was quiet, but for how long? She decides to check her Facebook messages on her phone. There wasn’t too many in her inbox, but an unusual status posted by her friend goes across her screen. Instantly, it caught her attention, her happy night was soon filled with worry. What had happened? Was her friend okay? Was his family okay? Without hesitation, Toni reaches out to her friend by calling, to her surprise, he doesn’t answer— her heart sank.

In disbelief, she read his status a few additional times. A feeling of helplessness swiftly washes over her. She had always been the nurturing type and because of their distance, she wasn’t able to support him in the way she truly wanted. At first, she sat at her desk staring at his status, then an idea came to her, they say words can heal and right now her words were all she had. Toni continued to stare at the blank screen that stared back her. She watches the cursor blink; it seemed to mock her as it waits for her to start typing. There were so many thoughts swimming around in her head. So many emotions in her heart that she wanted to convey. Yet she struggled to find the right words to say, her mind constantly drew a blank.

She continued with the attempt to unravel the mess of emotions inside her heart and mind. Everything inside was now spilling out onto the page. The more she typed the more she felt better; her anxiousness of trying to get it all out was slowly dissipating. Her fingers move about the phone’s keys expeditiously. She had to get it out, all that she wanted to say. Besides, he needed to hear her words just as much as she wanted to say it… at least that is what she thought.

She types…“When we lose someone so close, so suddenly… our life that once was overflowing with hope, promise and happiness to spare. Is now, replaced with hopelessness, doubt, and despair. We know not why some things occur: we just know they do. Hoping to find that reason to help us through-” Toni press on the backspace button, held it down, and allows the entire passage to delete. She wasn’t happy with what she had just said. After all, she didn’t want her message to be depressing, her friend needed to be uplifted more now than ever. Starting again, Toni thought of something new to write.

If my expression of love would help you heal my friend
Then I’ll surround you with my love to fill your soul with a light of hope
If my sympathetic words would help you heal my friend
I would write words that would ease the ache and restore
If my infinite hugs would help you heal my friend
I would embrace you tightly and allow you to collapse upon me…
My strength is now your strength …
You can count on me
If anything I do would help you heal my friend.
I wouldn’t hesitate to do it for you.

     Toni sat back in her bed, crossed her arms, then smiles. Although her message was short, every word had come from the heart, and she didn’t want to overwhelm his heavy heart with too many words. Finally, she was able to put into words what she was feeling and maybe those words, if just for a split second, put a smile on her friend’s weary face. She sat there, rereading her message, and then logs out.

     About a half-an-hour later Toni hears a strange noise. It sounded like someone rummaging downstairs then stumbling up the stairs to what sounded like her parents’ room. She didn’t bother to look as to not draw any attention to herself. Her brothers, Eric and Brett always had a way of including her in their mess and it is sounded like they choose to involve their parents instead. Besides, she wasn’t in the mood for it right now.

Her brothers had barged in and soon after Toni heard her mother’s ear-piercing scream. A snarling and ripping sound follows. The screaming stops, but the snarls continued. Toni shot up out her bed and ran down the hall to her parents’ bedroom. There was blood on the door and it hung ajar. Afraid of what she was going to see, Toni slowly pushed the door open. Then a little more. She saw no one there, just a bed covered in blood.

“Mom? Dad?” Toni called out, her voice shaking with fear.  As she was about close the door, she froze. Her breathing grew heavy as another presence could be felt behind her. A low-pitched growl came from behind her head. Toni hesitated but then turned to face her mother. Yet this was not her mother. Her mother had beautiful green eyes and long dark brown hair. This thing, this creature in front of her was far from that; she had midnight black eyes and her hair was matted on top her head and wet with blood.

Toni also noticed the side of her mother’s neck. It was missing a huge chunk of flesh. Her mother was bleeding profusely out of her wound, but she was still walking. How?

“Mom?” she asked, voice still shaking. Her mom growled in response then raised her nose high in the air. Toni watches as her mom breathed in her scent hungrily before Mrs. Kingly lunged at her. Toni cries out as she’s being tackled to the floor. Mrs. Kingly’s teeth snapped just millimeters away from her face, but Toni held her back. Her mom clawed her face with her fingernails, drawing blood. “Help! Somebody please, help me!”

Eric and Brett came running to aid her. Eric had gotten a hold of a knife and drove it into the back their mother’s head. The force throws their mother off of Toni. Who climbs back to her feet as Eric drew the knife back out of his mother’s head.

“What the fuck?!” she says breathlessly.  “What is going on?!” Toni asks, she was panicking now. Their mother lay there motionless on the floor, blood seeping out of a gash in the back of her head. Toni started crying hysterically.

“Come on, no time to explain-we have to go,” exclaimed Brett, motioning for them to follow him. In his hands, dangled car keys. “We got to go now!” Down the stairs, they flew bumping right into their father. He had his back toward them.

“Dad?” Eric said softly, touching his shoulder. Their dad turned, seemingly in slow motion. The oxygen was swept from Toni’s lungs at the sight of her father. He had become one of them. As she desperately tried to breathe, her ears began to ring. What was that? Toni turns to Brett. It was a gunshot. Brett had raised a shotgun to their dad and unhesitatingly pulled the trigger.

“Let’s go” he demands, and grabs Toni by the hand and lead her outside to the waiting SUV in their garage.

Toni took a look around the backseat and trunk, her brothers had stockpiled makeshift weapons, plenty of food and water into the back. How were they so ready for this? Maybe it was all those Resident Evil games and The Walking Dead show that somehow prepared them for this day.  They were working as a well-organized team. As much as she hated them being so interested in zombies, walkers, biters, whatever people were choosing to call them. Toni had to admit, she was thankful for it now.

Just then, there was someone banging on the car’s window. Toni screamed. Not another- not now. she thought. Suddenly someone pleading to be let in could be heard. It wasn’t another biter.

“Jessa!” Brett said, swinging open his passenger side door.  There in the driveway was his girlfriend Jessa, her little brother Adam, and their neighborhood friend, Cole.

“Brett, please, help us– I don’t know what happen but….” Brett could see his girlfriend clutching on to her little brother, Adam. He had his head buried in her stomach. Tears running down his little cheeks. “I-I just grabbed him and we ran. I-I didn’t know where else to go.”

“Have any of you been bitten?” Eric asked, climbing out of the driver side. He ferociously checks them.

“No, no —  at least I don’t think so” Jessa answers quickly

Eric walked around the car while Brett held his girlfriend tightly. Once Eric cleared Adam, Brett directed him to climb into the back of the SUV with Toni.

“He’s been bitten on the ankle” Eric whispers to Brett who was helping Jessa into the car.

“So, you just want me to climb into the back through the trunk? I can just-” Cole starts, but Eric stops him

“Put your things in the truck and Brett would like to talk to you about moving some more supplies out of the house,” Eric said calmly looking over at Brett who nodded. Cole did as he was told and follows Brett back into the house. Soon after one gunshot could be heard and only Brett returned… He threw the more supplies into the truck and got in.

         “We got to get to grandpas. He’ll know what to do.” Brett says, starting up their dad’s car. He looks at Brett, then Toni, then Jessa and then back at Brett “Ready?”

“Ready?” They all said in unison.

 

COMING SOON…

 

 

The Things Men Say 1

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The Former Classmate

We’ve all had that person who wouldn’t give you any attention in the past. Yet when they see you now they pretend as though they knew you were going to be great. In this guys case, I wasn’t interested then and I’m not interested now. He was in the friend zone even before it was a thing. and in the friend zone, he shall remain.  This message just makes me say… What?!?!?!  But thanks for the love though!